Letting Go ...

To Let Go .. loose and free !

I have been meaning to write something on this very tough emotion but was unable to bring myself to it .. until today.

Something you need badly, someone you care for or love deeply, some times you miss ..but you need to LET IT GO.

In most cases, I've always been confused about this decision. The confusion steps from 2 very famous sayings:

1: If you really want something, go after it. It should be the only thing that you can see.
2: If you really love someone/something, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours else it never was.

But I'm learning, slowly yet steadily...

LET IT GO !
The way to live life is to march forward - if it wants to go, it's ITS LOSS.

The Mantra of Life

This is a beautiful speech by Steve Jobs - titled: Stay Hungry Stay Foolish.

Truth be told - I listen to this every other day, and I cherish it as the mool mantra of life.

Some snippets:
1. You can't connect the dots looking forward, but it's quite obvious looking backward.
2. Believe that the dots will connect in the future, and follow your heart, even if it takes you off the well treaded path.
3. Do great work, and the only work that is great is what you love to do. So find what you actually love - and till then don't settle.
4. Sometimes life will hit you on the head with a brick, don't loose faith.
5. Live each day as if it's your last. Every morning look into the mirror and think, if today is your last day, would you still be doing what you are doing now.
If the answer is NO for too many days, that means you need to change something.
6. Your time is limited. Don't waste it living anyone else's life. Let not the noise of other's opinions drown your inner voice.
7. Follow your heart and intuition. Everything else is secondary !

Sach ka Saamna

The rules are thus…
RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent
RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?

INNOCENT. Never .. sounds so gross

Asked someone to marry you?

GUILTY. Many a times playfully .. thankfully not meaning even once

Ever told a lie?

Hopelessly GUILTY. Bad question - Should be the opposite - Ever told a truth ?

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back?

GUILTY. Yes yes.. for one long period.

Kissed a picture?

GUILTY.

Slept in until 5 PM?

GUILTY.

Danced on a table in a bar?

INNOCENT. Waiting for a chance to commit the guilt.

Fallen asleep at work/school?

GUILTY for school, GUILTY for work. School was fine, but I have just realised that it's easier at work.

Been suspended from school?

INNOCENT. Have been at the verge of 1 many a times in class 11 & 12.. but unfortunately ...

Worked at a fast food restaurant?

INNOCENT. Always wanted to - my parents were dread against the idea. Had even thought of working in a call centre for a month of vacations - never actually materialized.

Stolen from a store?

GUILTY. Latest was when me and my MRT girl(friend ???) went in to Haigen Daas - Ate a huge sundae and walked out without paying. Realised it when we were just about to take a cab - but then decided against going back - taking the logic that it's their "poor customer service" - and Singapore has too many people for him to remember our faces anyways.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

GUILTY. Have actually spit it out on people in front of me also.

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?

INNOCENT. Never struck me.

Kissed in the rain?

Partly GUILTY. Kissed after being drenched in the rain.

Sat on a roof top?

GUILTY. IIT Delhi convo sloping roof - with our legs hanging in the air.

Sang in the shower?

GUILTY.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

INNOCENT. Have always wished this would happen - but never actually happened.

Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?

GUILTY.

Shot a gun?

INNOCENT

Donated Blood?

GUILTY. I am a scared chicken.

Eaten alligator meat?

INNOCENT. WTF !!!

Still love someone you shouldn’t?

Thankfully INNOCENT now.

Liked someone, but will never tell who?

GUILTY. Dil ke baat hamesha muhn par lao .. nahi to chidiya ud jaeygey .... Though in my case waise bhi udd hi jatey hai :D

Been too honest?

GUILTY. Too many times - specially with people I love. Have realised it the hard way - that complete honesty is not the best policy. Refer to:

http://undercurrents-of-the-soul.blogspot.com/2009/05/friends.html

Kissed someone you shouldn’t?

INNOCENT. Unfortunately.

Ruined a surprise?

GUILTY. Believe in too much frankness.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards?

GUILTY. Again happens all the time - has even left a mark on me .. read Junior Kothari.

Erased someone in your friends list?

GUILTY. Deleted my gf when we used to fight - realised it was too kiddish

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)?

GUILTY. Sealed lips.

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?

GUILTY. Thankfully !!!

Had communication with your ex?

GUILTY. And i won't like to call that being guilty. :)

Got totally drunk on the night before exam?

GUILTY. Have walked in drunk into an exam. Some stupid value education presentation - Cheers to Prateek Arora for that :)

Sunday Morning Disorientation

It's Sunday.

And it's a holiday.

And I am disoriented about life - work, travel, food, friendships, relationships.

It happens when you are out of the country - when you actually miss your own people - You miss the relaxed life - you want to run from the struggle.

Hopefully as evening dawns I shall sort out myself - mentally, physically and emotionally.

It's one of those Lows of life which need to be followed by a leaping High.

The End of The World

Escaping from things ... escaping from reality ... doesnt it so happen that sometimes u r in the middle of some mess ... and there is a thought that I dont belong to this world ..


Im just a visitor ... I dont know these people ... there are just here for some time .. I have a world of my own somewhere where things happen according to my wishes ... there is no trouble .. I get what I desire ....


But lo and behold .. this is the only life I have .... that also for 60-80 years ...

Brings me back to the question ... WHY AM I HERE ???

There is no answer to me yet ... but yes there is one escape route ... PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS .....

Someone plz find some more meaning in life ....

Introspection – All About Life

this is something i had written in my about me after my first year after an academically disappointing second semester.

The winds of misfortune, the tides of frustration ,the storms of disaster all go against the unsheltered, harm the unharmed, torcher the untorchered.....all test your patience and perseverance ... such is life ... IS THIS LIFE ???
What is the very aim of life ... the meaning of existence ... the use of this life span..................?

I’m in search of this universal truth ...searching ... searching for some kind of solace …some kind of peace of mind... some kind of aim in life.

But I believe in searching with a smile...with optimism….. with hope …. with love.... with light ... in my heart so as to be happy ... but is my happiness the only thing.... its all a matter of questions.... unanswered questions.... answers of which I’m yet searching .....

People come and go in our lives. And then we think how genuine was our relationship with the person. More fundamentally a doubt comes that how genuine was the person ... his laughter... his comments... his actions.

Hence I am at a stage now where people around me are having changes in attitude ... actually they always have changes but now im realizing them and thinking about them. Hence it is a quest to find out the reality of a person who you think is your friend.... but this quest is a near impossible one coz human nature is highly complex.......

I never say life sucks...
It is just at some times that you loose the direction of living and then you sit back and think … again think about the purpose of our life... our existence…
People who say life sucks ...have seen yet nothing in life to pass such an obscure decision.
50 years down the line- say it and ill believe you.

Till then the magic lies in rediscovering yourself... your potentials...your capabilities... your shortcomings
And with these shortcomings and potentials you have to make the most of your lives … keeping yourself and all around you happy … cause till we come to any certain answers there is only this feeling of high that happiness gives us which gives us the purpose of living life…

so much to think ... a thought in this unthinking world

there is so much to think ... so much to wonder... in all those free moments one gets out of life .... and some not so free ones ...

the not so free ones first .... the times when u r supposed to work like now ... yeh u just feel like wondering ... thinking abt just anything ...but man being a selfish creature only thinks abt himself ... and even if u do abt others ... only in the same selfish way ... in a way that gives u pleasure ..

Wot does one do of this thought ? Call it day-dreaming ?? or just future planning ? there is no ans .. only qns
qns very fundamental in nature ... qns abt life ... qns abt love ... not questioning the existence of either ... just the relevance of both ...

there are many such qns but i shall ponder over them later ..

filaal abt thoughts ... the ones in the free time?
do u think in ur free time? and also wot do u think ... abt the girl/guy who passed by .. or the indian cricket match ... or abt wots cooking ... like i do lol...
or more deeper qns
this is one time i feel that u must think ... as i beleive introspection and self analysis is the most weakness or strength a person can have ?
talking of self analysis my class 10 teacher had once said that my greatest strength was self analysis ....
but is self analysis enough ?
wit it must come self improvement and self control ... which i endeavour too build ....

with this endeavour .... good day